Imagine having the prefect pregnancy no morning sickness at all.

Imagine you friends teasing you about carrying twins and you telling them no way.

Imagine at your first ultrasound finding two heartbeats and being so scared all you can do is cry.

Imagine measuring 40 weeks at 23 weeks and being in so much pain you can not sit up or lay down you can't eat or drink any thing at all and the doctors telling you it is ok.

Imagine going to the hospital 3 days later and not finding the other heartbeat because he is in a little ball because he has no room.

Imagine them taking your babies 10 days later on the first day of your 27th week. Because no one thought about TTTS.

Imagine your nurse waking you up at 5 in the morning rushing you to NICU to see your baby before he dies.

Imagine the doctor telling you your baby just had massive heart failure and he may not make it. And the drugs they had to use to start his heart caused him to bleed in his head. And his heart was as big as his chest.

Imagine having to leave order not to start his heart again 12 hours after he was born and at 17 hours being rushed down again but not in time to hold your son while he was alive.

Imagine while all this is going on you have another son in the other bed not knowing if he was going to make it.

Imagine not holding him for 5 weeks but when you finally do you know he will be ok. Imagine the first time they let you feed him with a bottle.

Imagine the first time the let you breastfeed you baby.

Imagine when he triples his weight at 4 lb 1 oz.

What it is to stop imagining, having my son home from the hospital and it finally turning into a reality!!

Julie mom to Jared who is about 2 weeks from coming home and his twin bother and my angel Ethan