Imagines...

Imagine that you are finally taking home your 4 pound baby and are so proud, only to hear the women in the elevator with you say "I wonder if that baby's mother did drugs?"

Imagine after a small glimpse at birth, you are not able to see your baby and you beg the nurses for a picture or some news, only to be ignored

Imagine being forced to stay in the recovery room for almost two days on Magnesium Sulfate, while all around you are healthy babies and their mothers and you can't get anyone to even tell you how your baby is

Imagine seeing your baby for the first time and crying "I am so sorry my body failed you"

Imagine the sweetest boy with two huge dimples and wondering if you can try again.

Imagine trying again, only to have your daughter die at 27 weeks.

Imagine 4 weeks after your daughters death, the doctor telling you there is something wrong with your beautiful boy, the one you thought had escaped everything.

Thank you,
Jennifer Mommy to
Jeffrey 4 FT
Joshua 2 1/2 34 weeker (moderate to severe SID w/ severe tactile defensiveness, severe developmental delays)
and my beautiful Sarah, always with me, born still on New Years Day 1999 Baumholder, Germany