magine being sick as a dog for weeks and not knowing why.

Imagine having numerous pregnancy test all proving negative.

Imagine 4 weeks later finding out that you are in fact pregnant even while you were on the pill.

Imagine not wanting to be pregnant and complaining the whole time about being pregnant.

Imagine spotting for the first 9 weeks of pregnancy and the docs don't know why.

Imagine still complaining about getting fat during pregnancy and not wanting to be pregnant.

Imagine getting back pains and not knowing why.

Imagine asking your friend if your high fever meant pre term Labor.

Imagine your friend telling you to take 2 Tylenol and go to Bed.

Imagine how you felt when you said you wanted the baby now (@ 22.6 weeks) and giving birth the very next day.

Imagine the guilt.

Imagine the docs and nurses telling your husband that it's either his wife or the baby or both that may not make it.

Imagine your husband crying uncontrollably.

Imagine your baby being born and looking purple and not making a sound.

Imagine the docs telling you that she may not make it and if we wanted them to call the chaplain.

Imagine not being told time and time again that your baby may not live till the next day.

Imagine your prayers.

Imagine seeing your baby for the first time and being in total shock

Imagine not being able to hold her for nearly 2 months.

Imagine not hearing her cry for 2 months.

Imagine your joy when she is finally off the vent and being able to hold her and kiss her and kiss her and kiss her.

Imagine your love finally being able to flow without fear of losing her. v Imagine 110 days in the NICU and the elation of finally bringing her home.

Brigitte

Mum to Helena Alexis former 22.6 weeker now nearly 2 months Corrected and a whopping 8 pounds 2 ounces