Imagines...

Imagine suffering through 5 years of infertility before getting finally pregnant.

My first child was born normally. My second attempt to become pregnant succeed immediatley and my husband and I were so lucky when they told us that I was expecting twins. I have an identical sister myselves. When I was 24,5 weeks pregnant I got suddenly very sick: I had then contractions and I was dilated. I spend 1 week laying in a hospital and on the 26 weeks of pregnancy when I was transferred to a hospital having a very good NCCU unit here in Paris, I gave birth. Two little girls were born on march 15th 1997: Cécile weighted 900 gr and Adélaïde (1kg). They were both transferred immediately to the Reanimation unit. What was awfull was that I didn't want to look at my babies when they were born : I was so afraid of seeing 2 corpses. I was so strong before, because in the previous hospital the doctors told me no chances at all of survival and they made me even walk. So I decided then to fight for my twins and I don't know why but I knew that there could be hope. But when I had to deliver I thought then all I had done previousey was vanished. Any way my 2 little girls were born alive and my husband and I we were filled with big hopes. 8 days later on a sunday morning, our little Adélaïde left us. The doctors had told us already on friday that she'll not make it. So we stayed all this time with her, singing to her and praying for her. She died in my husband arms. Fortunately, we still had Cécile and she made it !!! She stayed 3,5 months in hospital and she is now 4,5 years old and she is doing marvously well.

I very often think of Adélaïde my adorable little angel and still today it is so difficult to talk about all this. But it is very helpfull to read all these very touching experiences on this internet site and you don't feel alone.

Ambra de Bayser, Mum of Alma, Cécile, my little Adélaïde and Aliénor (born in 2001) Paris 2001